~Bella: back to my hole

I broke it again

It's so tiring I wish I could just let go

But why does it hurt so much

~Freda: Leaving the past behind

Leave it, I shall
Start afresh, I shall

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~Freda: Back

finally

freda back on duty

after a long long long break

it had been a tough journey for me for the past few months

exams, competition, performance, class bonding, physical training

i've been both physically and mentally trained

surprisingly

i overcame everything

and i survive

this gave my strength to continue my journey

though the future ahead might be tougher and more tiring

but

i've learnt to endure all the hardship

by telling myself that

i did it before so can i now

yes

grant me the strength and courage

help me fight against every obstacle that blocks my way

and most importantly

help me defeat the-other-me

...bellatrix...

~Bellatrix: Metaphors

when i get older and older

i get annoyed by something existing in this ugly world

they look nice

but for me

they are evil

1. glasses

well i mean spectacles

they are good..improving eyesight

but they are retricting my "body and face movement"

2. noodles

they taste so good

but why are they so long

this makes me feel annoyed

when i have to "suck" and "suck" and "suck"

before i finally finish eating

3. idols

why are there so many people admiring "idols"

are the so-called idols really the perfect features

for us to admire

no

they are just being very good in acting

good in showing off

making themself look nice and sweet

but they all make me feel sick

4. needles

mummy likes to sew

and i used to help her prepare the needle and strings

but i don't like it very much

i am quite careless and "vulnerable"

get hurt very easier

i tried to be more careful and stronger

but yet

the needles are too sharp for me to handle

5. elephants

people say they are cute, beautiful and blah blah blah

well maybe they are..

but sometimes

i find them being a little too arrogant

why do they like to lift up their trunks

especially when they are angry or happy?

zoologists might have an answer for it...

6. zebras

i like their strips sometimes

they astonish me a lot

but but but

when i am in bad mood

i find the strips very ugly

if the zebras have the choice to choose their "skin patterns"

they must have a very bad taste

strips in black and white

get to be out of fashion very easily

erm bad taste

7. the stars

do you really think that stars are small

no

they are huge planets (am i using a correct scientific term--"planet"?)

they may look cute and adorable since they look so SMALL

but i don't like it

being too modest is not a good thing

i hate hypocrites

~Bellatrix: E.C.O.N.S.

bellatrix on duty today...

and she says:

"e.c.o.n.s.....

endangered

corrosive

o gosh

nonsense

stupid

.....these best describe econs"

(i should have taken literature

rather than this does-not-make-sense-to-me economics)

freda-bellatrix

me the freda-bellatrix on blogger!

first of all, let me explain my name... yes, the name freda-bellatrix...

well.. it's not my real name(obviously not)

it's a combination of two different names actually..

"freda" and "bellatrix"

why freda?

someone told me that freda means peace-leader... (really?)

it hence symbolises my desire of obtaining peace and tranquillity

in the depth of my heart and mind

then why bellatrix?

well.. it contains part of my real name...

and the most important fact is that

it is the name of the killer of sirius black in the book of harry potter

i love the name so much but yet i hate the character very much too

it shows the conflict in my mind

and the feeling of hatred, confusion, and grief

"freda-bellatrix"

is the struggling of my double personalities

the life here is so stressful and pragmatic

i'm almost exhausted in the mist of schoolwork and social-life-activities

i hence seek for a place

to yell and scream and shout and cry

and to find my true identity

as a form of

escapism